For years, I searched for God everywhere except where He actually was.
I looked in sanctuaries and Sunday services. In the opinions of spiritual leaders and the pages of devotional books. In the quiet moments I could barely find between the demands of motherhood, marriage, and the never-ending to-do list of life.
I kept waiting for that magical moment when things would slow down enough for me to finally connect with God. When the laundry would be caught up, the kids would be calm, and I'd have ten uninterrupted minutes for a "proper" prayer.
Because here's what I discovered in the midst of the chaos: God was never waiting for the quiet. He was right there in the noise—in the dishes piling up, in the dirt under my fingernails from the garden, in the whispered prayers I breathed while folding laundry for the hundredth time.
I realized I had been taught that finding God was complicated. That it required special knowledge, perfect circumstances, or someone else to show me the way. But the truth? It's beautifully simple.
God isn't separate from me, waiting on the outside for me to get my act together. He's inside me. He's in every breath, every heartbeat, every moment of this messy, beautiful life.
This realization didn't come all at once. It was a slow unfolding—a gradual awakening to the truth that I was never separated from the Divine. Not for a single second.
During the busiest moments of my life, when I was pulled in a thousand directions, I started asking questions. And then—this was the game-changer—I got quiet enough to actually hear the answers.
That's what embodied divinity means to me. It's the understanding that God doesn't just live "out there" or "up there." He lives in here—in this body, in this moment, in this breath. It's welcoming Him into every single second of life, not just the ten minutes I might have for a quick prayer.
And once I understood that? Everything changed.
What I thought would be difficult turned out to be the simplest, most natural thing in the world. Like breathing. Like loving. Like coming home to yourself.